where have I been?

thanks for all the amazing comments on my wedding pictures, I have a few more to share but should have a ton more soon from my in-laws....wow...in-laws, I have not called them that yet.

So, I have been missing from the blog world because as you know suring wedding week we had house guests, my in-laws were staying with us, and my mom.

The visit itself went very well, all things considered, though inside I was nervous, anxious, sad, and well...crazy, just crazy.

You see I had not seen my mom in years and seeing her was both amazing and heart breaking to be honest. I love my mom, a lot. Our relationship has been rocky at times and has now settled quite nicely to where we are now. But....seeing her after so long I was shocked at how much she had changed. I am sure she thought the same about me.

I wonder if it was sad for her too.

I can hardly put my finger on it, but it was there, she had gotten older obviously, and she seemed smaller, more tired, and a little more forgetful. Most of all she just seemed so sweet, so very tender and sweet, like a little kid. Don;t get me wrong she is still a mom so there was still some nagging on her part and me snapping at her, but that was always followed by feeling guilty and sad. She just wants to love me, and I should let her.

AT one point while she was here she went upstairs to take a nap, and when I woke her later, there was this moment while she was still sleeping all curled up on the bed, that I found so touching.

As I type this I find myself crying. I missed her, I did not let on how much, but I did miss her. There she was, asleep on a little bed and it hit me, this was my mom...I pictured her little and lonely life since my father died and I was overwhelmed.

I know the reason we get a long so well is because we don't see much of each other, but at the same time I cannot let myself not see her for this long again, what if something happens??

sorry....I am rambling about something I did not intend on talking about, lol

Anyway, where was I....

oh yeah, craziness and house guests, blah blah....

so anyway, everyone left on Friday leaving us to get back to normal, only the problem was....poor Scribble had gotten really, really sick and I was up all night with him on Thursday and Friday was bad too, so Friday night my bubs and I were at the animal hospital...we left there with loads of medicines and special food for the little guy, and no money....YIKES, pets are so expensive.

Anyway...Scribble was still not right all weekend, but then yesterday morning he started to be more himself............so now, now I feel like things will slowly get back to "normal"

sigh...

sorry, that was so long. I intended to come here, mention the Scribble thing, apologize for those of you waiting on shipments and let you know that I am almost caught up on shipping....and to let you all know I now have postcard sets in my shop....

but maybe I should wait and tell you about the postcards tomorrow...it would feel strange to show pictures of them now, after this long and emotional post.

anyway, that's the that in my life.

how are you??

starting to freak...

Happy Friday!

ok wedding/life/shop update...

my dress is finally at tailor getting alterations, it will be done in time for the wedding (thank god)

I got plane tickets for my mom, they are bought and paid for (this was touch and go for a while but it is done)

my wedding bands are in the process of being made, they are not done but they will be, I have no doubt, I won;t start panicking until next week.

we got an appointment to get Scribble groomed for this Saturday morning, my bubs will be bringing him before work, and able to get him when he is done, sadly I am a little sad about this, as it will be the first time that Scribble is gone from me for so long, I fear the house will seem a little empty with out the "click" click" of his claws on the hardwood floors.

We got Scribble's appointment for his "surgery" for Wednesday morning....still trying to get the money together for this one but it will happen, I am only 40% worried....no strike that 30% worried seems better.

my taxes are still not done but they are "almost done", meaning I have my crap together and added up and I just need to sit down with the forms and do them, only a couple more hours of work and they should be good to go, I WILL have them sent out before the end of the month.

We don't have our wedding license or any pf that yet...but maybe next week or the week right before the wedding. (eep)

In my Shop....I have loads of new Reproduction Prints, including the set that is shown above, I also will be listing 2 new button sets today (YAY) and new gift tags and new vintage keys that are so strange and spectacular! I am still having my sale, so if you are in the mood to treat yourself to a little something, it won't break the bank.

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Wow, sorry that was all sort of jumbled and not very flowing but I needed to get a lot of info out and not a lot of time to do it, you see it is Friday before we get the mean cheese day, and I have A LOT of stuff that needs to get done today, including working on the new Petite Heights for Sunday (which is the beginning of my favorite story arc so far), and some crappy Ebay work, my bubs and I are selling everything that is not nailed down.

So with that I bid you a very fond farewell, hope you all (that celebrate) have a wonderful Easter, that includes all of you who celebrate it as "Zombie Jesus" day....it would be wrong to leave you out (so I guess this is just a shout out to Aaron).

xoxo
jenn

tag...I'm what?

so, you all know how much I love beings tagged and random surveys so when Blue Boy Gifts tagged me...well, you know I just had to jump at it.

this tag is to name 7 random, odd, or strange facts about myself.

now, yes...I am an open book so finding new and random things to tell you is getting a little hard but here goes.

1- books....I used to own thousands and thousands of them, I had a room in my old house in NH that was all books, floor to ceiling. I love reading, I love words....they were my friends when I was lonely, lovers on nights when I needed them, and soul mates before I found mine. SO when I did find my soul mate and was moving 800 miles to a land unknown and had no "home" or money, well the books had to go. I ended up selling them to a book dealer for about .10 each, it was awful and a little heartbreaking to see them carted off like that. It was not until I realized I did not need "things" to fill up my life that I started to feel better about it.

2- my puppy loves me unconditionally, he is completely devoted and I love him to bits, but he is my first "real pet" the first one that is all mine (and my bubs) now that I am a grown up. So I am new to the experience. I keep analyzing everything, like I keep asking my bubs silly questions like "he loves me right?", and "why does he love me so much?". I guess I am new to this pet devotion, I love it, but it's odd especially for someone as neurotic and dysfunctional as I was raised to be.

3- I am fragile like a tea cup

4- I am obsessive about how much I love cheese, I need to have it on almost everything. I can honestly say I do not remember a hot meal I have had in recent months that did not involve cheese in some way. (besides pancakes....pancakes have no cheese, obviously).

5- I love the Lord of the Rings movies, I have seen them all countless times, probably over 50 each as I used to just watch them non stop in the background while working or taking care of the mean cheese. When people ask me if I have read the books I usually say yes, just so I don't have to hear them go on and on about how I NEED to read them....truthfully I tried to read the first one and I was actually bored. In this rare case, I prefer the movies.

6- I cry when I see elderly people in love, like if I see an old man and woman holding hands in the bookstore I start to cry, it's not something that can be stopped, it just happens.

7- I have been hit on by a former teen heart throb, some of you know who I am talking about but I will not mention it here again as he currently is on a tv show....it was silly and ridiculous and he was desperate and smarmy, when I introduced him to my bubs he quickly just walked away mid conversation, and by conversation I mean him staring at my boobs...I later heard he spent the rest of the weekend (we were all at a show) trying to score pot from other local people.

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so there you have it, my list, now I am not going to "tag" anyone as I know some people fold under the pressure and hate it, but there are a few people I would LOVE to see do this, and they are Tara, Sarah, Marissa, and Aaron

Also, for those interested I was able to get my mom her travel arrangements to come out here, actually flying out of the airport she wanted and having her changeover in another airport that I know very well so I could tell her exactly where she will need to go.

There was some last minute travel drama because of a sudden change of plans, but all is taken care of....everything is fine...well expect my bank account, which had to spend the extra $$ for the "right flights", but seriously, such a small price to pay to be able to see my mom for the first time in YEARS...just years.

oh, and I am still having a sale in my shop, so check it out!

the other side of the weekend

good morning

How are you?? Your weekends? Marvelous? Mine was low key but great, well great except for the couple hours yesterday when I started the long arduous journey that is my taxes....seriously, I have no idea how one little person (that's me) can amass so many receipts, between the post office and supply receipts I must be responsible for the death of so many trees just to make the receipt paper.

So, here's the deal, my taxes are a huge undertaking that I plan to work on little by little lest I go insane. So, if I am not posting quite as often, please know that I have not abandoned you all for a glamorous life, in fact if not blogging or painting or doing the etsy thing, I will most likely be wither 1- on the stationary bike peddling my way to hotness, or doing my taxes.

I am still going to really try to keep up with blogging at least 3 times a week but just in case....

so, in just a couple days I am going to see the Dancing With The Stars tour in all it's glorious over the top camp. I am so excited you see the way most people feel about going to see concerts, well that is how I feel about this, or going to the ballet or theater, they a very rare treats these days, but when it happens I am though the roof.

you see my mum raised me on a healthy diet of dancing, dancing, theater, more dancing and more theater, now...mind you I was NOT one of the bratty theater kids I would eventually work with when I was on the stage...no, I was a student of dance for many years and a lover of theater...we would get dressed up and her and I would go and sit in the cheap seats of the balcony and just lose ourselves in that world.

she would whisper quietly to me...."that's going to be you someday"

and it was, I can say that, for a brief while I lived the life of flood lights, dressing rooms, and curtain calls....and I would be lying if I said I did not in occasion miss that...

but it's a hard life, and the people...well some of them or more than wonderful and then there are others....well I'll just leave it at that, the others....and frankly my skin is not thick enough to deal with that, and the health of my poor bedraggled body also cannot deal with that rigorous schedule....so instead my new stage is my studio, my new actors are my collages...acting out the most wonderful stories, plays, dances...each one giving the type of performance that when they are done they feel a piece of them has died.

but in a good way.

wow...hell of a lot of babble there, and I am not sure if any of it makes any sense at all, can you tell I am putting off working on the receipt pile.

photo today is of a new(ish) piece that is available for sale in the shop.

Happy Friday!!!

ok....I am feeling kind of slagged today after not being able to fall asleep last night...

I know, you are thinking that I have to lay off the frappio, but you see...it's not the frappio, I swear. I actually blame the vitamins my mom send me in a giant "take care of yourself" package.

In this said package there was flaxseed oil, vitamin D, Vitamin B, Vitamin C serum for my face, dead sea salt scrub, dead seal salt moisturizer, two different kinds of green teas....and of course toys for the mean cheese....

how is it when you get older your toys become less fun, and more geared towards not having wrinkle and fighting off cancer...nothing says belated happy birthday like miracle cream to put all over you...

hell, I can;t afford a little botox facial, so this has got to do, right?

so in all seriousness she said in her (long winded) letter that I would have a lot of energy on this combination of pills, so at a little after 1:30am, I finally believed her.

Though I was that strange kind of tired...too tired to do anything but not tired enough to sleep...so I just laid there, thankful I was not having an absurd panic attack, thinking about Heroes, and fashion, and the end of Amazons Attack #6 what that means for the DC universe (I know...LAME).

I got to thinking about the holiday season and about my time management skills (or more to the point, my lack of), and trying to figure out how I would get all things done, considering things are slow, slow, SLOW right now and I always feel like I am 2 steps behind....so somewhere around this brainstorm, I fell asleep...

wonderful sleep, when morning comes too soon and my bubs is mumbling that I need to hit the alarm as he cuddles into me for a minute before he dashes off to the restaurant bright and early...

so that's that....my reasoning for being blah....I intended to write a wonderful and thought provoking entry about my bubs and his brilliant celebrity impersonations, but that will wait for another day...a day when perhaps I am accustomed to the new vitamin regime, a day when I don't have to package and make a trek to the post office....a day when the back of my mind is not fixated on Japanese Vogue....oh, speaking of, THANK YOU for all the tips and emails....I have some leads, and my dear buffy soul mate Jody seems to have cracked the case of the missing Nippons.

so with that I will leave you with the new ornament that's in my shop as well as a new small collage, I know it looks like Angelina, but I assure all you Angie haters out there, that it is not Angie....just a model...


xxoxo
jenn