where have I been?
thanks for all the amazing comments on my wedding pictures, I have a few more to share but should have a ton more soon from my in-laws....wow...in-laws, I have not called them that yet.
So, I have been missing from the blog world because as you know suring wedding week we had house guests, my in-laws were staying with us, and my mom.
The visit itself went very well, all things considered, though inside I was nervous, anxious, sad, and well...crazy, just crazy.
You see I had not seen my mom in years and seeing her was both amazing and heart breaking to be honest. I love my mom, a lot. Our relationship has been rocky at times and has now settled quite nicely to where we are now. But....seeing her after so long I was shocked at how much she had changed. I am sure she thought the same about me.
I wonder if it was sad for her too.
I can hardly put my finger on it, but it was there, she had gotten older obviously, and she seemed smaller, more tired, and a little more forgetful. Most of all she just seemed so sweet, so very tender and sweet, like a little kid. Don;t get me wrong she is still a mom so there was still some nagging on her part and me snapping at her, but that was always followed by feeling guilty and sad. She just wants to love me, and I should let her.
AT one point while she was here she went upstairs to take a nap, and when I woke her later, there was this moment while she was still sleeping all curled up on the bed, that I found so touching.
As I type this I find myself crying. I missed her, I did not let on how much, but I did miss her. There she was, asleep on a little bed and it hit me, this was my mom...I pictured her little and lonely life since my father died and I was overwhelmed.
I know the reason we get a long so well is because we don't see much of each other, but at the same time I cannot let myself not see her for this long again, what if something happens??
sorry....I am rambling about something I did not intend on talking about, lol
Anyway, where was I....
oh yeah, craziness and house guests, blah blah....
so anyway, everyone left on Friday leaving us to get back to normal, only the problem was....poor Scribble had gotten really, really sick and I was up all night with him on Thursday and Friday was bad too, so Friday night my bubs and I were at the animal hospital...we left there with loads of medicines and special food for the little guy, and no money....YIKES, pets are so expensive.
Anyway...Scribble was still not right all weekend, but then yesterday morning he started to be more himself............so now, now I feel like things will slowly get back to "normal"
sorry, that was so long. I intended to come here, mention the Scribble thing, apologize for those of you waiting on shipments and let you know that I am almost caught up on shipping....and to let you all know I now have postcard sets in my shop....
but maybe I should wait and tell you about the postcards tomorrow...it would feel strange to show pictures of them now, after this long and emotional post.
anyway, that's the that in my life.
how are you??