from that to this

good morning loves


so yesterday was a rather blah day....I went from a near perfect Wednesday to a Thursday that left me feeling anxious and rather bad.

we all have those days those moments and hours plagued with self doubt and fear...those days when everything you touch turns out not quite "right".

I worked and worked and ended up getting more frustrated and angry than anything else....leading me down that road of obsession and turmoil.

yes, I am being melodramatic...and not being a very good blogger at that.

Sorry...I think I was riding high for so long with the move to the new house, a wonderful creative burst of energy, and all the wonderful things associated that now this is the inevitable crash, the low, it is unfortunate that it is coming at this time, this time when I need to be productive and make this "art thing" work for me as a job, at a time when I need to have things ready for Craftin Outlaws....OK I know I am ready physically for the show I know I am almost where I need to be but with doing a show (which I rarely do) comes all the questions that plague me...

what if I suck?
what if no one buys anything?
what if the tent collapses and water pours all over everything I have and ruins it?
what if my hair looks bad that day?
what if people think I'm ugly?
what if people think I'm a hack?

and so on, and so on.....

I am being silly, right? I know I am, logically I know I am being too sensitive, but the non logical part of me, the part that houses the creative side of me, the emotional side....is all a mess right now.

all raw and exposed, you see sometimes I am a smart, talented, confidant, artist who is more than comfortable in her own skin...and then sometimes I am that girl in 7th grade that everyone made fun of who would eat lunch with her teacher and get peanuts thrown at her on the bus.

you know....that's enough enough bad yucky self doubt for the morning....I am going to do a top 5 list and then be on my way...

ok top 5 things that are wonderful right now

1- root beer floats
2- my friend Steve came over yesterday with a dvd box set of the best of Shark Week....
3- The new issue of the Buffy comic is all about Faith and Giles....like it was written specifically for me to love
4- I know I have the fall fashion issue of Japanese Vogue in my PO Box...I just have to get there to check it.
5- Edith Wharton ghost stories....sigh, I think I'm in love....

Shark Week

Happy Monday loves!!!

ok, so maybe not so happy....How were your weekends??? Please fill me in on the debauchery, please.

So I had a great weekend, starting of course with the Nancy Drew date on Friday as well as a leisurely lunch out with drinks...and yes, now that I am no longer in a Nancy Drew frenzy and I am thinking with a clear head...I still loved it.

Yes...it's a movie meant for children and the dreaded "tweens" I hear so much about...but it was a great movie for what it was, and Emma Roberts (new Nancy) did not even bother me as much as I thought she would. I was really afraid that just knowing that she was Julia Roberts niece was going to throw me off for the entire movie.

So that was how the weekend started...throw in some creating and some alcohol...and it was all fun.

My bubs and I also decided to have "Shark Week" in which all we watch are bad (and sometimes good, but that's rare) Shark movies...our big "living room" space is actually our studio, so we can pop in a movie and both continue to work on stuff (more about what we're working on in a minute), so this weekend we have seen...


Jaws (the original)
Jaws II (good, not great but good)
Jaws III in 3D (I think the best part of this one is every time there was a oart that should have been in 3d but wasn't my bubs sort of waved his arms about and said in a monster movie voice...3d...........3d...........
Jaws IV (this time it was personal...this is the first in a long line of smart shark movies, where the sharks hunt you because of who you are...not just because you are food.

we also saw...Red Water which starred Lou Diamond Phillips and Coolio...I think this was actually a made for TV movie, it was awful and there was a shark in a river....so you know it was bad.

ok, so I spend the weekend making things for my shop, as well as brainstorming with my bubs and coming up with ideas for.....our WEB COMIC...yes you heard it correctly we are going to have a web comic... it is actually the "Petite Heights" strip that was appearing in my Stiletto Heights comic, but we are doing tons of new ones....I say we, but in reality it is my bubs doing 85% of the work, I am the muse and the one that makes the people say what they are supposed to say.

I am the Stan Lee to his Jack Kirby (if you get that then you are a big geek like me).

So, now your wheels are spinning and you are thinking to yourself...where will I be able to read this wonderful thing....well sillies, it will be right here on my blog....It will be published on Sundays.

I am not saying it will start this Sunday....maybe next though, but I did want to give you a little heads up.

ok, enough of a ramble for now....I need another cup of coffee and I need to start packaging pieces (note the alliteration)

Tomorrow I will entertain you with a tag...oooh I know you can't wait more useless Jenn trivia!!


xoxoxo
jenn