15 Things

morning.

First, big huge giant thank you to ALL of you who took the time, to read my near manic meltdown on Friday and respond with such wonderful things.

They meant so much to me, more in fact than you will ever know. You see, this is the tightrope I walk, when I combine what it is I do with who it is I am....all of a sudden I get those days that I think, that without my work, what am I...

and then the spiral begins, and well...you know the rest.

We had the little mean cheese this weekend and she gave me a present....a cold....not a nice present, but a present nonetheless. And, yes for the record I did just get over a cold...but lucky for me one of the medicines I am on sort of messes with my immune system sometimes.

but anyway, I am not feeling too bad right now, just sleepy.

SO on Friday I meant to do the following sort of tag, but I got sidetracked.

My wonderful friend Tara did this on her blog a while ago and I have been meaning to do it for a while.

so in her words..."The assignment is to list 15 things you would like to tell 15 people without naming names. The responses may not make sense to the readers but the therapy is valuable. Give it a try. You don't have to do 15 do 1 or 2; feeling particularly pent up, do 100."

1- where ever you are is home to me

2- I wish more than anything that we could meet in real life, as I think we would be real friends.

3- I should have gone to my senior prom with you, I am still sorry about that.

4- I have never been very good at being a daughter and at letting you love me, but I am trying.

5- you are a better artist than I could ever hope to be, I am both inspired by you and envious of you

6- you made me feel small and worthless, I should have had the strength to walk away sooner than I did

7- I wish you could see me now, I wonder if you would be proud.

8 - it is because of you that I am the person I am today.

9- you have seen me cry more times than anyone in the world, you also know all the good parts and bad parts of me, and you never made me feel bad about them.

10- when I got married I was thinking of you.

11- you are the type of friend that I need right now.

12- you need to give yourself more credit, I think you have an amazing talent that you just need to use.

13- I know I am hard to love.

14- I used to drink a lot using the excuse that I hated you, when the truth is I hated myself.

15- I wonder if we were friends just because next to me you thought you seemed prettier and thinner, once I was gone you had no use for me.

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wow that did feel really good in a very Post Secret Kind of way! Well, that's all I have for you today, I will be back tomorrow, same blog time, same blog channel.

xoxoxo
jenn

thank you!!

Good morning everyone!

first, a giant thank you for everyone for your comments on my little illustrations, it was really very scary for me to show them, and even list them. They just seemed so teeny and small, like a little wall flower girl at a party, hoping against hope that someone will notice her, in a good way.

Big thank you to Tara as well for being the first official owner of an illustration. I will be listing more today as they were the easiest to work while suffering with the Great Plague of 2007.

today's post will be lackluster again I am afraid, you see I have a ton of stuff I would love to get done before I have to begin to clean the house for the arrival of the mean cheese, and I have not been very productive this week as you can tell by how sad my shop looks.

ok, maybe it doesn't look sad to you, but it feels sort of sad to me.

oh wait, I do have to do something.....I forgot that Sarah has tagged me, I am supposed to write 7 seven things that people don;t know about me and then tag 7 others...I know a lot of you get stressed when there is tagging involved, but please feel free to take a not from my bff Aaron, he gets tagged all the time, but never tags back, he plays by his own rules.

ok, 7 things

1- when I am nervous or stressed at all I twist my hair around my fingers until the curls go smooth and then I sort of pat the smooth part, I do this repeatedly until my hair look really bad...it is mostly a late night thing to do, or early morning, before I at full zenith.

2- if I could I would take a nap every day, I love napping, in fact i love taking naps more than sleeping at night

3- I am a loud talker, especially when I get excited I start almost shouting and my laugh is ridiculously loud, all the time. My ex (that no good hippie) would say it was humiliating for him and he would constantly tell me to use my "indoor voice" like I was a child, for that I would get even louder.

4- I learned to read when I was 2 years old....I think my parents thought I was quite an impressive child, a little genius perhaps. I always got the vague feeling from them that they thought I peaked too early.

5- I love beauty pageants, I know, I know I shouldn't like them...big hair, bad dresses, crazy moral and religious things being spouted from a bimbo in a bikini....but I just like them.

6- (which brings me to this) When I was younger and still sometimes now, every time I had to make a wish I would always wish to be beautiful, every time, I just wanted to be beautiful, more than I wanted world peace, or to be healthy.

7- Both times I tried to go to "real college" I dropped out...I went to an art school for acting and graduated, but every time I tried to do the real school thing...I did really well, but then panic would set in and stress I and I would just freak, this is one of the many reasons why I am in debt.

ok, that's it....now who to tag, who to tag....I am going to tag Lou, Karen Beth, Jody, Sara, Alex, Aaron, and Isabellah.

ok the images shown today are two new pieces that are available in my shop.