Stiletto Heights

I am Jennifer Gordon- a mixed media collage artist and comic writer living in Columbus OH, with my fiance and love- Keith. I specialize in paintings, ACEOS, journals, art boxes and more. I am always available for commissions! Visit my etsy shop at: http://www.stilettoheights.etsy.com

Monday, May 21, 2007

15 Things

morning.

First, big huge giant thank you to ALL of you who took the time, to read my near manic meltdown on Friday and respond with such wonderful things.

They meant so much to me, more in fact than you will ever know. You see, this is the tightrope I walk, when I combine what it is I do with who it is I am....all of a sudden I get those days that I think, that without my work, what am I...

and then the spiral begins, and well...you know the rest.

We had the little mean cheese this weekend and she gave me a present....a cold....not a nice present, but a present nonetheless. And, yes for the record I did just get over a cold...but lucky for me one of the medicines I am on sort of messes with my immune system sometimes.

but anyway, I am not feeling too bad right now, just sleepy.

SO on Friday I meant to do the following sort of tag, but I got sidetracked.

My wonderful friend Tara did this on her blog a while ago and I have been meaning to do it for a while.

so in her words..."The assignment is to list 15 things you would like to tell 15 people without naming names. The responses may not make sense to the readers but the therapy is valuable. Give it a try. You don't have to do 15 do 1 or 2; feeling particularly pent up, do 100."

1- where ever you are is home to me

2- I wish more than anything that we could meet in real life, as I think we would be real friends.

3- I should have gone to my senior prom with you, I am still sorry about that.

4- I have never been very good at being a daughter and at letting you love me, but I am trying.

5- you are a better artist than I could ever hope to be, I am both inspired by you and envious of you

6- you made me feel small and worthless, I should have had the strength to walk away sooner than I did

7- I wish you could see me now, I wonder if you would be proud.

8 - it is because of you that I am the person I am today.

9- you have seen me cry more times than anyone in the world, you also know all the good parts and bad parts of me, and you never made me feel bad about them.

10- when I got married I was thinking of you.

11- you are the type of friend that I need right now.

12- you need to give yourself more credit, I think you have an amazing talent that you just need to use.

13- I know I am hard to love.

14- I used to drink a lot using the excuse that I hated you, when the truth is I hated myself.

15- I wonder if we were friends just because next to me you thought you seemed prettier and thinner, once I was gone you had no use for me.

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wow that did feel really good in a very Post Secret Kind of way! Well, that's all I have for you today, I will be back tomorrow, same blog time, same blog channel.

xoxoxo
jenn

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18 Comments:

Blogger Aaron said...

Jenn, I'm so over the senior prom thing. You can let it go.

;)

Feel better soon, Jenny from the Block! Being sick = no fun.

8:29 AM  
Blogger Craftymoose Crafts said...

Carthartic for the author--I definitely plan to try this!

A little daunting for readers who try to figure out...is she talking about ME?

Feel better!

9:05 AM  
Blogger jewelstreet said...

Hope you feel better soon!

I like the Batman reference. lol. And, that seems like such fun. I wonder who my #1 would be?! Hmmm. lol.

9:07 AM  
Blogger CountryGirl_CityLife said...

This was very interesting, I like the air of mystery. A few of those were thoughts I have had and actually made me tear up a bit. I think I will do this one too. Feel better soon!

9:22 AM  
Blogger moogan said...

I hope you feel better.
I didn't get around to reading your friday post until just now. So with a late response time I leave you with:
believe in yourself always. your passion for your art, and fashion, show in very piece you create.

9:37 AM  
Blogger Beej said...

I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU WHEN I GOT MARRIED, TOO!

heh.

Feel better.

9:46 AM  
Blogger Karen Beth said...

What a neat list! I love the anonymity of it. I don't know anyone on the list but I liked imagining who you might be directing the statements toward. Neat meme.

I'm so sorry that you have another cold. Bless your sweet heart! Take care of yourself and... as I always say... REST!

Big hugs!

Karen Beth :)

10:01 AM  
Blogger stilettoheights said...

aaron, I was going to be all coy and say, who said that one as about you, but why bother...

I also busted out laughing at ben's comment...not laugh in a bad way...just laughed.

10:18 AM  
Blogger gilfling said...

Oh my word - this is poweful stuff! I actually felt a bit teary too, thinking of the things I would say and seeing similarities with some of your thoughts. Maybe I should try it!

xxx

12:13 PM  
Blogger http://afancifultwist.typepad.com said...

Yes, well, the present given this weekend. You have to realize, it is coming from someone with the word, "mean" in her name. But Alas, the mean-cheese, does give gifts too....YIKES! I felt like I was the one saying all those! Although, a few didn't apply...they all were undertsood...xxo,V

1:20 PM  
Blogger NancyPearlWannabe said...

Jenn, thanks for the great post. I copycatted you. Is that a word? I just made it one.

I hope you're feeling better!

1:35 PM  
Blogger Angela said...

Outstanding Jenn! :) I love it! I bet that was very theraputic. If I can later I will do it! :) GREAT POST! :) Pat yourself on the back my friend, you did a wonderful job! :)
*HUGS*

6:31 PM  
Blogger molly said...

oooh whats post secret? im intrigued

7:13 PM  
Blogger alexgirl said...

sorry about the cold. And sorry for Friday's meltdown. I have been avoiding the computer and wasn't around to say anything nice. Sounds like you're feeling better... except for the cold.
I love your list. It's cryptic, poetic, truthful, and wise. Just like you Jenn!!

11:52 PM  
Blogger jungle dream pagoda said...

This is a very interesting exercise,one that I might try in private.

10:41 AM  
Blogger Maryam in Marrakesh said...

That's so sweet, esp about the prom.

5:27 PM  
Blogger Chickenbells said...

Oh how wonderful...I love them. I am going to do it too...I also enjoyed Post Secret and wondered if I could think of anything to say on a postcard, pulled out a piece of paper and filled it up (tee-hee)

11:14 PM  
Blogger Gypsy Purple said...

What a totally clever thing to do!!!!
I`ll have to try it....wow

7:45 AM  

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