First, big huge giant thank you to ALL of you who took the time, to read my near manic meltdown on Friday and respond with such wonderful things.
They meant so much to me, more in fact than you will ever know. You see, this is the tightrope I walk, when I combine what it is I do with who it is I am....all of a sudden I get those days that I think, that without my work, what am I...
and then the spiral begins, and well...you know the rest.
We had the little mean cheese this weekend and she gave me a present....a cold....not a nice present, but a present nonetheless. And, yes for the record I did just get over a cold...but lucky for me one of the medicines I am on sort of messes with my immune system sometimes.
but anyway, I am not feeling too bad right now, just sleepy.
SO on Friday I meant to do the following sort of tag, but I got sidetracked.
My wonderful friend Tara did this on her blog a while ago and I have been meaning to do it for a while.
so in her words..."The assignment is to list 15 things you would like to tell 15 people without naming names. The responses may not make sense to the readers but the therapy is valuable. Give it a try. You don't have to do 15 do 1 or 2; feeling particularly pent up, do 100."
1- where ever you are is home to me
2- I wish more than anything that we could meet in real life, as I think we would be real friends.
3- I should have gone to my senior prom with you, I am still sorry about that.
4- I have never been very good at being a daughter and at letting you love me, but I am trying.
5- you are a better artist than I could ever hope to be, I am both inspired by you and envious of you
6- you made me feel small and worthless, I should have had the strength to walk away sooner than I did
7- I wish you could see me now, I wonder if you would be proud.
8 - it is because of you that I am the person I am today.
9- you have seen me cry more times than anyone in the world, you also know all the good parts and bad parts of me, and you never made me feel bad about them.
10- when I got married I was thinking of you.
11- you are the type of friend that I need right now.
12- you need to give yourself more credit, I think you have an amazing talent that you just need to use.
13- I know I am hard to love.
14- I used to drink a lot using the excuse that I hated you, when the truth is I hated myself.
15- I wonder if we were friends just because next to me you thought you seemed prettier and thinner, once I was gone you had no use for me.
wow that did feel really good in a very Post Secret Kind of way! Well, that's all I have for you today, I will be back tomorrow, same blog time, same blog channel.