Stiletto Heights

I am Jennifer Gordon- a mixed media collage artist and comic writer living in Columbus OH, with my fiance and love- Keith. I specialize in paintings, ACEOS, journals, art boxes and more. I am always available for commissions! Visit my etsy shop at: http://www.stilettoheights.etsy.com

Friday, April 13, 2007

Back to work



morning!!

wow, yesterday was a much needed little break for me, I did only the slightest amount of work...as many of you know I am a bit obsessive with my work load and find that I am working all of the time.

That is part of the downsides from working at home, I never take a "day off".

So yesterday my bubs and I went to a movie, we...The Reaping, which was....well it was exactly what were were expecting it to be. I love scary movies that mix bible anything into it...so when I kept seeing the previews for this and repeatedly the words "bible plagues" were said...well, I knew it was the movie for me.

Plus it took place in the swamps of Louisiana which is where "my people" hail from.

All in all it was good, fun and scary...not scary like The Exorcist but still very good popcorn turn off your brain movie , at one point I was watching the movie all balled up on my seat, barely peeking out over my knees. This is hard to do in 4 inch heels but I needed to.

I also had my hands up almost shielding my eyes...waiting, just waiting.

We were also the only two people in the theater so we got to just be sort of loud and funny during it.

all in all in was good, though...disclaimers being what they are, I was raised very catholic (I'm not anymore...but that's not the point), when I was little my mom gave me this "children's bible" that was filled with gory painted illustrations of the 10 plagues and all that, I was mortified and fascinated by this when I was small, so seeing this movie was like peeking back into the things that scared me when I was small.

Looking back, I don't know why my mom gave me such a frightening children's bible...but I guess she had her reasons.

After that we had a little lunch and just relaxed.

I think we needed it, you see my bubs and I are always doing stuff, even when we are home together, we very rarely take the time to just be, I am not sure why this is, but relaxation is always just out of reach.

I would like to try and work on that.

I know I get obsessive with my work because it is such an extension of me, of who I am...when I am having a good day work wise, I feel calm, secure inside.

Worthwhile.

But on days when I am suffering from creative block, or sales are down, well it's strange, I take it personally. I am filled with doubt and all at once I am insecure. This makes it very hard to be around me sometimes, those times that I am filled with "need" for reassurance.

That is what I want to work on, I want to just be me, with out the doubt. Is this even possible? I know everyone feels like this sometimes but is it possible to just be so at ease and comfortable with yourself?

Or is being an artist type something that predisposes you to this inner turmoil.

wow....I have no idea how this blog went from Bible plagues to insecurity.

maybe that is one of the plagues???

ok I should dash, I have photos to take of some new pieces as well as a couple things to finish up. I will be listing a set of Audrey Hepburn blocks later today!!!

I listed this set of blocks last night, it is a set of 5 blocks and it is up for sale in my shop.

until next time, have a very merry Friday The 13th.

xoxoxo

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15 Comments:

Blogger NancyPearlWannabe said...

It's always good to have a little rest now and then. I hope you have a fright-tastic Friday the 13th!

9:09 AM  
Blogger jewelstreet said...

It's always nice to have a day off. I'm glad you had a good time yesterday.

Love those blocks! They're fantastic.

9:24 AM  
Blogger Craftymoose Crafts said...

The block set is awesome! Have a great Friday & a great weekend!

9:25 AM  
Blogger Aaron said...

Self-loathing and insecurity are, I think, the domain of the artistically-minded. You should hear the crazy shit that's been going through my head this week.

But guess what? You rock and you're loved -- hell, all of my friends adore you and most of them have never even met you! :)

Miss you, repeat. xoxoxoxo

9:29 AM  
Blogger gilfling said...

Oh Jenn - you read my thoughts!! So many of us feel the same I think. Which is why blogging has been such a revelation to me, to know that I am not alone in this.

I adore those blocks!! Almost as much as I adore you.

9:37 AM  
Blogger Rafe Totengco said...

I totally empathize. Don't take it personally, whatever you do because it isn't. I always remember that phrase from a song, corny but true...the sun will come out tomorrow. :-)

9:57 AM  
Blogger moogan said...

love the new blocks!
I totally feel your pain. I never have any time, my husband and I both keep so busy, there hardly seems like enough time for one another, let alone ourselves.
I'm glad you had a nice day, I hope you try to have more!

10:13 AM  
Blogger Karen Beth said...

Okay, I FINALLY got Blogger to work so that I can comment! I thought I was blocked out but fingers crossed that it works this time.

The block set looks great! Love those and will have to be having some at some point. ;)

I think we all go through times when we really doubt ourselves and have trouble being comfortable with who we are. Of course, I believe that life is about constant re-invention so maybe you are going through a bit of that? It is just about learning to go with change and learning to evolve. You are so great and fluid and will be amazing no matter what small changes occur.

I ramble. ;)

I'm so glad that you and your bubs had a day off yesterday and got to just be. That is so important. Hope you two can do that again soon.

xo,

Karen Beth :)

2:30 PM  
Blogger Angela said...

WOW! What wonderful pieces girl! I love the music! Music in collages are great! Outstanding work!

4:55 PM  
Blogger alexgirl said...

I love the idea of the scary kids bible. Not being religious myself, I find that amusing.
The Reaping sounds scary. But not as scary as the mouse story you left on my blog. NO me gusta MICE!!!!!
Have a good weekend.

4:58 PM  
Blogger Angela said...

I just realized their boxes!!! Ohhh how stupid I feel.... Sigh...comes with not being able to concentrate that well I suppose. Anyhoo, WONDERFUL Box work! Your probably getting tired of me commenting on here...hehehehe well gotta admit girl, I don't get tired of checking out your works! Great art! :)

8:11 PM  
Blogger alluretone said...

i hate scary movies. nice work, i wanna see the hepburn ones!

1:54 AM  
Blogger Ming_the_Merciless said...

OMG, I didn't know you were a coonass too. I went to school and lived in Monroe, Louisiana for almost 8 years.

3:35 AM  
Blogger Ming_the_Merciless said...

BTW, saw The Reaping and thought it was mediocre at best.

3:35 AM  
Blogger artandghosts said...

insecurity certainly is one of the plagues of life! the surest one to hold our hands when all else fails!

i actually know a guy who has the same thoughts...that his work (art) is an extension of himself.
the down side to this is that all aspects of the self get into it, and on a bad day....oh!
the remedy?
the art becoming your sort of 'positive double' who whispers nothing but rewarding and positive words into you ear; the retreat from the storm, your permanent access to beauty and renewal.

i kinda try to keep it like that, its certainly worth a go!

but of course, we all know you are amazing, so you have us too!

12:02 PM  

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