Stiletto Heights

I am Jennifer Gordon- a mixed media collage artist and comic writer living in Columbus OH, with my fiance and love- Keith. I specialize in paintings, ACEOS, journals, art boxes and more. I am always available for commissions! Visit my etsy shop at: http://www.stilettoheights.etsy.com

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

So out of place


I think there might be something wrong with me...no seriously, something wrong.

I think I am missing a gene or some major part of my brain that is supposed to make me into something.

Last night I had my trunk show at my lovely friend Diana's house, it was nice and successful to a certain extent too. But while I was there I was completely overwhelmed by the sense that I do not fit in...

I am 31 (eek) have no kids, no plans for kids, and that makes me happy, so happy!! I am not a kid person!! Also, I don't own a house, I don't cook!! The last time I tried to be somewhat domestic I ended up burning my stomach while making Ramen Noodles...since then I have been forbidden by Keith to even use the stove!!

So last night was an eye opener...a view to what I am supposed to be as a woman...especially out here in Ohio...sometimes it's like being back in the 1950's...lol

I end up feeling still like I am a child compared to most women, they talk about children and houses and cleaning and cooking...and I stare blankly, as if they are speaking in Esparanto or some such nonsense...

Yet when I am around younger people, I feel old, cranky, and strangely off-putting to them.

I cannot win. It makes me realize why I stay in most times, sit quietly with my guy and just paint away....

This is one of my latest pieces, it is called "Could You Ever Really Know Her" and it is available in my Etsy store.

I have not had much time to do any real work, tonight I will be able to do somestuff though, and that makes me so happy.

4 Comments:

Blogger ~Gina said...

Hi jennifer,
I do all those things you mentioned in your blog entry AND I still don't fit in. :) Sometimes I think that's part of being an artist. Our brains are swirling with all these ideas of things to create next. :) By the way, I just love your work!
~Gina

8:13 AM  
Blogger stilettoheights said...

Thanks Gina!!! You're right, I think that is what being an artist is all about!!

10:19 AM  
Blogger Heatherly said...

Jenn,
You can't compare yourself to those other women!! Living your life and doing what makes you happy is NORMAL!:-) We're one in the same. I'm 30/no kids/don't own/not married. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Given the chance, would we switch places with those "Domestic Goddesses"? HECK NO!! But, I bet they'd trade places with us in a heartbeat! Just keep being who you are and don't worry about it!! You're great!! And your art is FANTASIC too!!
xo,
heather

12:58 PM  
Blogger stilettoheights said...

lol Heather!! I love you!!! Rock On Girl!!

4:07 PM  

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