Stiletto Heights

I am Jennifer Gordon- a mixed media collage artist and comic writer living in Columbus OH, with my fiance and love- Keith. I specialize in paintings, ACEOS, journals, art boxes and more. I am always available for commissions! Visit my etsy shop at:

Monday, November 19, 2007

It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas


well we survived another mean cheese visit, this one was filled with a "little" less screaming and mood swings from little miss cheese, or miss mean, depending on the day.

so......................I love Christmas, there, I said it.

For years I was sort of a Scrooge, for no real reason, I just was, Christmas seemed like a whole lot of worry too much time being spent frantic and being shuttled from place to place for visiting, Me being overly self conscious and often shy, found these get ups to be rather frightening. My father too, seemed a bit nonplussed by the holiday as well.

You see he and I were always just a tad "too serious" for Christmas.

Sure, we did all the decorations and ate the big foods but there was something strangely tense about it all. Please don;t get me wrong, my childhood is filled with memories of wonderful Christmases with my family, but they still seemed a bit tense, and sometimes a little sad.

By the time I reached adulthood and was involved in my first marriage to that no good hippie, I just about hated the holiday, then my father passed away and it became even worse, where was the light, the joy.....I did not see or feel what anyone else was.

Then in an attempt to build my professional theater resume years ago, I auditioned for "A Christmas Carol" and landed a role (that year I was Belle, Scrooge's love), and something began to slowly happen to me over that production, when at first I loathed the songs and the hoopla, I did them because I had to, because there was a paycheck involved. But somehow the joy began to seep in.

I did the show for the following several years, and by the time the productions were done, I was a wee bit heartbroken.

I had learned to love Christmas, in my own little "England long ago" kind of way.

Then my bubs and I got back together, and low and behold, he loves "everything Christmas" yup, everything, we are already listening to the themed up music, and soon we will be watching tons and tons of Christmas DVDs.

it's infectious.

well, why the long diatribe of Christmas love today????? Well we got our tree yesterday, and for the first time in my life, I am now the proud owner of a "big tree" not huge like we wanted because we could not afford it, but we did get a a tree that is taller than us...

I am aching to decorate it, just aching!!! We have been wandering the Christmas sections of all the local stores and looking at the ornaments, it almost makes me cry, they are so beautiful, and not always but sometimes there is someone so sincere in the Christmas aisles that is feeling this strange joy too....and it both fills and breaks my heart.

It is strange.

ok, this is clearly enough babble for me, I will write more later about Christmas eve, or as I call it "Kissmiss" and why it is so special to my and my heart.

more later darlings.

Labels: , ,


Blogger LadyK said...

What a wonderful post! I love Christmas, everything about it. It warms my heart.

Have a Merry "Kissmas" this year and have fun decorating your tree, baking cookies, and watching those DVDs!

8:07 AM  
Blogger gilfling said...

Oh Jenn the tree sounds wonderful! we could only afford the tiniest one last year but will give it another year out this christmas and perhaps make it our dining room tree next year.

I have always had mixed feelings about christmas - I love the songs but it was lonesome when i was single - even with my family. Now though it is all different!

You will have a wonderful year in your new home!! xxx

8:31 AM  
Blogger jungle dream pagoda said...

I'm a krazy krismas kook myself! Something about having kids and parenting myself as well as them I'm sure!

9:29 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

aw, kissmas. I love the holidays but am not big on decorating (lack of space to store decorations). I will play some music, though, and attempt to bake some yummy treats. I still have to mostly travel so I look forward to the day of waking up in my home with P and cuddling and making breakfast.

10:30 AM  
Blogger Aaron said...

I have always unabashedly and unironically embraced everything about Christmas. From carols to blinking lights to animated holiday specials. I'm glad you finally saw the light -- and thanks to A Christmas Carol, no less! You're like a much prettier, much snarkier Scrooge.

11:10 AM  
Blogger Ming the Merciless said...

Like you, Christmas is one of my favorite holidays (the other being Thanksgiving). I love Christmas not because of its gift-giving, holiday-eating extravagances. I like Christmas because everything is crisp and fresh and cold; the decorations are up and everyone is dressed to the nine; and I get to sleep in under the covers.

12:38 PM  
Blogger Ming the Merciless said...

After reading your Marie Osmond blog entry, I had to go search for the song my brother and I sang as we were growing up.

So this is dedicated to you

N.B.: Guess who played Marie?!?!?!

12:52 PM  
Blogger Michelle said...

i used to call it kissmiss too. awe :)

and i am so bummed i'm not getting a tree this year. seeing as i live by myself there really is no poit, plus i'm broke having just moved. it won't be the same without it :/

2:00 PM  
Anonymous Noelle said...

I love that you love Christmas. I feel that you can either fight it and be grumpy, or go along with the ride and have fun. Or, I guess you can go along with the ride and have fun with the grumpy people. That's an option, too. I'm going to have to get some help getting my Christmas stuff out of the 2nd floor storage area this year, because as much as I love my fall decor, Christmas is even more fun.

3:46 PM  
Blogger Michelle said...

Christmas Eve is the best night of the entire year. Hands down. :)

5:33 PM  
Blogger Chickenbells said...

It is amazing the power A Christmas Carol has over a hardened heart! I am excited you are liking Christmas more...and I can't wait to see your tree...

5:53 PM  
Blogger Amity said...

Hey I "tagged" you in my most recent blog post (check it out for details on how to play)!

Lots of love girlie xxx xxx

5:37 AM  

Post a Comment

<< Home