Yet another day in the glorious life of me
I have been in a mood lately, so down and cranky. Maybe it is the post holiday blues...not sure.
I hate to be a mopey drag...but it has been increasingly hard for me to put on a game face and go through the motions. I find myself just fighting to keep things together, and I feel like I am doing nothing except letting people down.
I'm not perfect and I know it is impossible to be perfect, but I just feel as though lately I am nothing but a let down. I am trying so hard to do everything I can, and I am just coming up short.
Things at the comic shop are not going well for me, and I am here so much that it is all consuming when what I really want to be doing is art. I get home and I am just so tired, I don't have the energy to paint, nor do I feel inspired. That is scary.
I can't and probably shouldn't complain, Keith works his butt off at the restaurant, crazy hours and a ton of stress, and he is doing great there, and he is making people proud. His parents were so pleased when they saw the restaurant, I just wish I felt like I was making someone proud.
This sucks I am feeling so pathetic and needy...these are parts of my personality that I try so hard to keep in check and buried. No one needs to hear my complaining, no one needs another sob story about some neurotic artist type.
ok, I should finish now...as I fear I have bored what few readers I have an made them go away. Come back tomorrow, I promise I will be more lovely and entertaining.
I need a big hug today..but I am afraid that if someone actually hugged me I would start crying and never stop.
The photo I chose today is a new art card and it is called "Shattered" and it sort of sums up how I am feeling this moment.
it is available for sale in my Etsy Shop.