Finally Getting Somewhere...

Hello loves

Thanks for all wishing me a fun night out on a date with my bubs....also for not making me feel like such a shut in or uni-bomber for not seeing Borat yet...

the truth is....we didn't go out last night instead opting for a "stay at home date", which frankly allowed us to just cut to the chase....I know, naughty naughty.

Truthfully by the time yesterday was over neither of us felt like doing anything, we dubbed yesterday "Fat Wednesday"...not to be confused with "Fat Tuesday" or Mardi Gras...no, Fat Wednesday is when we just throw caution to the wind and just gorge like we are going to be executed....

The day started with pumpkin bread left over from when Keith's parents came in to town, when we got to the shop Rob and Laura brought us donuts...and though I know full well that the main ingredient in donuts is cellulite...I ate three of them anyway.

Then a bit later we had pizza...

um, yeah, so if I wasn't feeling a bit oafish before that, I most certainly was then...

but it was fine, I have long long given up on being adorably gamine like Audrey Hepburn, and I know body type I am more like a Marilyn Monroe...well, Marilyn in later years, and I have the personality of Kate Hepburn...with a little of the crankiness of Bette Davis and the temper of Joan Crawford, oh and the need for alone time the way Garbo did.

wow, why am I babbling about this, oh yeah....because of how I feel about myself.

Growing up and even now, I have been totally obsessed with old movie stars and beauty in general....I always wanted to be that...that beautiful thing.

If I could go back in time and be someone like Gene Tierney...well, that would be ideal.

But as it stands that is not me...nor can it be me.

And I am trying my hardest to get past all my "issues" about how I look...I go through times when I feel like I really "own" myself, when I walk I have that certain umpf...I am not in one of those places right now...but I am getting there.

so watch out world, here comes trouble.

lol.

The image I am showing today is of a small art card I have listed in my etsy shop. When I imagine myself in my head, this is how I imagine I look...silly I know, but everyone has that "version" of themselves they always wish they were.

The card is called "The Story Of You"

So here is a peak at mine.

until next time darlings

xoxo