And So it Is
did you all miss me.
You have no idea how much I have really missed all of you.
So I know I was supposed to have internet on Monday...but of course, things never go according to plan, and if you think about it, when I called 911 two weeks ago and they never showed up....well that should have told me something. Of course the phone company won't follow through.
Though here it is Wednesday morning, I finally have a phone line , but no high speed yet...so I am still rockin the old school dial up.
Yes...I am a as cool as you always thought.
In all seriousness, I really felt oddly disconnected from the outside world during my days with no internet, my connection with the outside world was gone, I felt very isolated and lonely...though on the plus side....I made a lot of new stuff, which is the point of being home and doing art.
I am almost caught up on commissions and have only one more to finish. I also plan to send out the mailing today offering my Valentine's Specials!!!
I even feel like I have broken though a barrier built for myself in my head, I worked on a piece all days yesterday, and it really has a feel unlike any other I have done, it is a bit whimsical, and has an almost storybook quality to it.
It is hard to explain, but I am showing a photo of it today, I will be listing in on my etsy store later on today. It is called "Becoming Imaginary"
I guess that is how I was beginning to feel. Is that strange? I felt like I was not real for a little while, that I was becoming a ghost, not in the sense that I was dead, or really that I was invisible, but that I was for a brief moment inhabiting a life that was not mine....
I think this is what unabashed solitude will do to you.
SO you may be wondering how I am enjoying being home, I will be honest, it is a bit strange. Such a huge transition, my Keith and I were both a little "off" the past few days...we have made up for it by going to our favorite restaurant twice in the past several days, as our little way of holding on to something that has not drastically changed in the past few days...our big fear is that the place will close down, and we will lose it altogether....
oh so sad...
I feel so far behind on everything, but I keep having to remind myself that I am not on a set schedule anymore, that this is my life now....like right now, I am in my pj's and click clacking away on the computer, I am drinking a mocha and I can hear Keith playing his guitar quietly in the other room.
this is such a beautiful moment....it makes me forget everything else for a few minutes.
until tomorrow my dear readers