This is what it means

Every once in a while you have those moments, or at leats I do, when you realize what it is that you are doing as an artist, what it means to create a piece of art.
Art is more than creating soemthing pretty, to be enjoyed, looked at, and then forgotten. I have never been one to adore paintings of pretty little landscapes, of covered bridges...now I understand that people who do these things are very talented, but pieces like that don't say anything to me...I hope that they are saying soemthing at least to the very people who have created them.
Are is more than just beauty, sometimes art needs to be ugly, scary, thought provoking and offensive, that is what art is. I am not trying to create just things that are pretty or the ever elusive "interesting" there are reasons behind evrything I do...

This morninng K had to leave early to go to work, so I was up a little past 6:00 and was already painting, the air felt good on my skin, it makes me wonder I consider morning evil...

I finished this painting, and I'm calling it "At This Moment I knew"...when it was done I had to take a minute, look at it, take in the story, know that the woman in the painting though not physically me...was me nonetheless.

Every once in a while, there is a piece that captures a moment so perfectly...that exact moment that I knew where my life was going, the mistakes I had made...the road not taken screaming for me...

I am proud of this work, when and if this piece sells out of my etsy shop I will know that the person who owns it will understand the meaning, that it will speak to them as the paint spoke to me when I created it, they will all at once be calmed by it, haunted by it, and comforted at the very thought that the person who created it understands them...

thanks for reading...