Stiletto Heights

I am Jennifer Gordon- a mixed media collage artist and comic writer living in Columbus OH, with my fiance and love- Keith. I specialize in paintings, ACEOS, journals, art boxes and more. I am always available for commissions! Visit my etsy shop at: http://www.stilettoheights.etsy.com

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

this day of days


Good morning to you all….well good afternoon and evening to those lovelies across the country and world from me.

I hope you all had a delicious Tuesday…mine was pretty darn good if I don’t say so myself, got to spend the day wit my bubs, which was wonderful.

Though I will admit, I have already developed my own little ritual and routines with being home in my secret lair all day.

Having him here was wonderful, but I was “off” all day.

He was darling enough to take me out of the house for a while, we went on errands and a wee bit of shopping, he was kind enough to buy me for Valentine’s Day, a lovely and perfectly casual and adorable little black dress, less Audrey and more a Marilyn getting off the plane from Mexico dress, he also let me pick out the most ridiculously adorable skirt I have ever seen.

I am unable to photograph them yet as they are a “present” and I “can’t have them” until Valentine’s Day….which means I will probably have to wait for the photos, but trust me, they are so cute.

Now…where to wear them. I am aching for spring as I type.

I actually have to go to the comic shop today to work, today is the day that all the new comics come in, and it will be the first day I have been into the shop for work since giving it up a couple weeks ago (ok, a week and a half really).

I fee strange about it, a little off about the whole thing, almost strangely nervous.

Does this make sense? Keith and I built that store, the customers are our friends, and I am so looking forward to seeing them again, yet at the same time, I feel like a girl before the first day back at school.

I am also completely aware that it is no longer the house that Jenn (and Keith) built, and though I was happier than you can imagine to have given it up, well…it feels in many ways like seeing an ex boyfriend, someone you broke up with and were happy about it…but there is still that lingering feeling of unease when you run into one another.

(one of the many reasons why I love living 800 miles away from all of my exes)

I used to think I was petrified of change, though this transition that I have just been going through has shown me that I am not scared of change, but of looking back.

I am scared of regret.

I am scared most of all of being a disappointment, of letting people down. I am afraid when I see and talk with some of the customers that are very close to us, like family…that I will see a change in their eyes, ever so slight…but a change, like I had let them down.

this is one of the reasons Keith and I kept the shop as long as we did, the fear, that aching fear of disappointment.

I just want to be able to show them and say to them all that I am happy, that we are happier now.

Wow…ridiculously long and rambling post today, so sorry my darling ones.

Oh, and because this entire post had a theme of change and moving on…I have really tried to push myself and expand my artistic horizons as of late, so I worked on a collage that was different than most of mine so far, it was a still life.

It is for sale in my etsy shop, and it is called “Study of Two

Hope you enjoy it.

Thanks for reading this…wish me luck.

xoxoxoxo

10 Comments:

Blogger Jen said...

Jenn,

I love your latest piece; it is beautiful. Hope you are well. Miss you!

Jd

7:59 AM  
Blogger stilettoheights said...

OMG when I saw that it was jen, I was wondering if it were you!

8:03 AM  
Blogger Jen said...

It is I! I finally had a moment to respond; though I had to create a blog profile of my own. Things have been so very hectic here; sorry I have not been in touch.

9:51 AM  
Blogger RecyVintage said...

Ah... as you know, I too am scared of regret. I'm also afraid of change but I hope that, like you, I can move past that someday. I love your new piece, Jenn. Really beautiful work! It is subtle yet intense and reflective. I like it! I hope your day at the comic shop is great, much better than you are anticipating. I'm sure your old customers will be very happy to see you and, more than anything, happy that you are happy.

xo... Karen Beth :)

10:12 AM  
Blogger jewelstreet said...

That still life is so beautiful!

Change is good, so they say. It will be good for you to have a small hold on the outside world. I'm sure you will be mildly happy while there and a little surprised that you miss it. Remember, though, that someone must man the Stiletto Heights Empire.

11:19 AM  
Blogger stilettoheights said...

thanks everyone, it was nice to be there for a while, and then keith and I got to go out and do the lunch thing together, it really still feels unreal to me.

maybe it always will.

4:11 PM  
Blogger gilfling said...

So Jen I hope you had a lovely day there and it wasn't in any way wierd or sad. You know how much I love that new painting! Absolutely divine.....

8:01 PM  
Blogger Gypsy Purple said...

Lovely collage.....can`t wait to see that dress!!

Best of luck at the store and would like to hear how it went!!

Chamara

9:41 PM  
Blogger KSV said...

I saw your Etsy Shop today. Had I not quit my job I would have purchased several things. I love everything!!!!! I am glad you like my clutch, I love it, as well!

11:08 PM  
Blogger http://afancifultwist.typepad.com said...

You are such a darling to visit. I love your detailed stories. That collage is so beautiful. I love fruit in art. Love it. I can not wait to see your clothing treasures!! Yum.psL How did it go at the shop?

11:09 PM  

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